Well so much for the new year starting out more positive. I got to make a trip to urgent care due to a really bad infection and I was so dehydrated from throwing up for two days, it took three different nurses and four tries to place an IV in one of my veins. The first two tries they got the vein but then the veins completely blew out. My left arm is completely sore and bruised still from it. Then by the fourth time it was done by a pediatric ICU army trained nurse. He even said if he can’t get a vein, I would have been f*cked! Meanwhile he was also so nice about my PTSD being triggered by having an IV placed. I started shaking, getting clammy, and extremely nauseous to the point I almost blacked out. On top of that my hypertension disorder started acting up and if you don’t know what that is it is when your muscles tense up so bad it hurts and you can’t control it, you basically have to force your muscles to relax when it happens. Including when your hands start doing it, I have to force my fingers to straighten out and relax. Anyways point is even the army trained nurse admitted I actually had to make him work for a vein and he hasn’t had that issue happen for him in long time. He gave me crap too and told me I should’ve came the day before to do the IV more easily. Then I kept apologizing over and over again and he is like “Stop apologizing, it’s not like you did this on purpose”. Unfortunately, from all my medical experience from having serious health issues and surgeries and a bunch of other fun procedures done to me, I HATE going to the ER, urgent care, and just doctors’ appointments in general. The healthcare system here in Los Angeles, California is a freakin joke and thanks to the opioid pandemic with all these deaths happening from accidental overdoses, it makes things even worse! Last July my dogs (a great dane VS wolf hybrid) got into a serious fight, the great dane (his name is Pauly) backed off when I yelled at him but the wolf hybrid (named Cato) he wouldn’t stop and that’s when I had to intervene. Cato ended up accidentally biting me.!

!!! WARNING IMAGES BELOW ARE VERY GRAPHIC DOG BITE IMAGES PLEASE SCROLL PAST IF THIS IS TRIGGERING!!!

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I had to be on crutches for a week and I had to convince the doctor to let me go back to work after a week instead of two weeks. It was not fun at all. I literally am a magnet for serious illnesses or injuries. The time before the dog bite, I accidentally broke some glass while cleaning and I was standing on the chair. I went to step down and of course I stab my foot with a piece of glass, I yank it out and it starts bleeding horrifically. Yeah, I had to be on crutches for a couple days again because if I walked on it the wound would start heavily bleeding again.

Another time before or after that, I thought I had a blister on the bottom of my foot. Well, I was dead wrong, I was walking on it for a couple days and it was gradually getting worse mind you. I couldn’t walk on it at all. My friend at the time looked at it and is like “Dude that is a splinter in there that is severely infected”. I refused to go to the ER, my friend he took a pair of tweezers and started squeezing all the puss out of there and plucking out SEVERAL splinters. It took 3 hours to completely drain it and remove all the splinters. Every time my friend went to squeeze, I would grab a pillow and scream into it as he went to do it.

Then for sure the time before that (okay this is going to get a little TMI BEWARE), this is the reason actually that I now get Brazilian waxes instead of shaving my pubic hair. One of my pubic hairs turned into an ingrown hair which got infected. I had an abscess on one of my vagina lips from that and my mom was like “You can either get it lanced or wait for it to pop on its own” F*CK NO WAS GOING TO LET A KNIFE NEAR THAT AREA AND I DID NOT FEEL LIKE GETTING A LIDOCAINE SHOT THERE EITHER. Anyways it popped, I spent days squeezing puss out and having to put rubbing alcohol on it. I am shocked there isnt a weird scar or anything there now.

This was all in 2021 & 2022 by the way when all this happened.

Have I proved to you all the crappy luck I have with injuries and whatever? Yet I used to be the most athletic girl ever before my first surgery at 16 years old. I did ballet, figure skating, horseback riding, ran ten miles a day, hiked, cross country racing, track and field, soccer, baseball, basketball, a little bit of football, cheer leading, platform diving, and Tae Kwon Do.

Now at 27 years old, I am actually done with the rehabilitating of my body finally after all the surgeries I went through! Now working my way up to running and walking ten miles and spending time with the horses so I can start riding again. I want to save up money though to do a few riding lessons though before I get back into riding and training my youngest horses. I’m very happy with the progress I have made overall though with everything that happened to me between the ages of 16 and 23 years old.

Currently I have developed an amazing skincare routine that literally everyone including my coworkers, they have their minds blown when they find out my real age. Everyone thinks I am barely 19 years old. It’s like yes! I am strutting it like a teenager at 27! Very happy with that. I also developed a workout plan as well to get the results I want. OH! I also quit smoking cigarettes finally! I only smoked for a couple years but I was heavily chain smoking at one point, it was bad. I started smoking in the first place because when I went through all my surgeries, my pain management doctor put me on hydromorphone and fentanyl patches. Of course, I got physically then mentally addicted to it at one point. I however never went to the streets for the drugs or any other kind of opioid while going through that. I asked my pain management doctor to help me get off of it and him and the other doctors refused to help and give me anything to get through the withdrawals, so I didn’t have to quit cold turkey by myself because of how dangerous that is. The doctors didn’t and refused to help, lead to me falling into psychosis for THREE AND A HALF MONTHS! For those that don’t know what psychosis is, you know how people are talking to something or someone that isn’t there or have voices in their heads? That’s psychosis too. Not just schizophrenics experience that. It’s also a lot of extreme addicts experience as well. My psychosis was so severe the doctors told my mother that there was a very high chance of me being permanently mentally disabled. I am sure proving them wrong now and exceeding their expectations!

This year I am aiming to really expand my photography portfolio and even involve some experimenting with self-portraits since my new camera has Bluetooth! I also want to develop my own social media marketing modeling team and hopefully collaborate with some brands and hair stylists and makeup artists! I would also like to collaborate with clothing lines too! That would be amazing! If you are interested in modeling, please go sign up and click here.

Hopefully I also graduate school on time too! I got till August to complete my courses!

Will post again soon!